and no thinking, that is becoming my mantra. Just zone out and don't think about it. If you don't think about it, it can't hurt, right? Then, why won't the pit in my stomach go away? And not even a pumpkin spice latte does much to tide the PMSy tears that threaten to overflow.
We are going to an adoption agency information meeting next Tuesday. I think DH thinks that if I learn more about the process, I'll feel better about it. If that's what he's thinking, he is barking up the wrong tree. I am on information overload already.
He often tells me how beautiful my eyes are and doesn't realize why that makes me sad, how much I want to see my eyes in my baby's face.
Just rambling today. And trying to hold it together at work.
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Your post made me cry. I am glad that I work from home, so no one sees my tears but me. I know how you feel. I hurt with you today, for you.
i can't keep crying at work like this!
Sending you lots of hugs and strength to make it through the day
Oh.
Oh.
I really, really, really get it.
Pam
Good luck with the adoption info session. Hang in there. I know what it feels like to just not want to learn anything else.
I'm sorry that this is all so hard. I know how you feel. Sending hugs your way.
I'm so sorry. Sending positive thoughts your way to help you survive the next couple of weeks.
I'm so sorry.
I stumbled onto your blog and it seems as though we both got a BFN yesterday. I wish you happy thoughts and good luck.
I am holding onto the hope that we will get our wishes fulfilled.
All the best.
Oh...I understand how you're feeling. I hope you got through your work day and are having a better evening.
Hey. I hope today is going better for you. Keep breathing and being.
Ooph! Your comment about seeing your eyes in your baby's face really hit home for me. It just seems most men don't really understand the complete yearning to look into your baby's face and see your eyes and his nose, or your nose and his lips, etc.
I teared up too.
Good luck with the meeting - and know you're not alone...
((hugs))
what else can i say? it hurts and i understand.
I know I'm late in reading this but I just want to send some hugs your way. I am so sad for you and I wish there were words to say but there aren't.
Please be kind to yourself. I hope the agency meeting goes well on Tuesday. I am praying for peace to find you. XOXO
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