Maybe it's because I'm an attorney or maybe it's because I used to be a prosecutor or maybe it's because I have a heightened sense of justice, or maybe it's because of something different altogether. Process is important to me and ultimately, the end never justifies the means, if the means are not acceptable. As much as I have hated it, I have either conceded issues or dismissed cases where I knew the defendant was guilty, but the process was wrong. When the process is jeopardized, a cloud remains over the end result.
This weekend, after a long and tearful discussion involving all of the moral qualms DH and I have with freezing embryos, I asked him, "Why are we considering doing something that we have a such a problem with?" He said he wants me to be happy. I told him, "the end doesn't justify the means." I don't want the conception of our child to be clouded by the greys of moral uncertainty. So, it seems that is decided. Unless something drastic changes, it seems very unlikely that we will ever attempt ivf. And the end result of that is that we probably won't be having biological children.
DH is ready to stop altogether, he thinks any further IUIs are pointless. I am not sure yet on that one, but I'm getting there.
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Good for you for doing what you believe in!
P.S. When is your DH doing a S/A with the staining?
He goes for the s/a on Wednesday. Not sure how long the results will take since this is not an "ordinary" one.
I am glad that you and dh are able to make a decision that you both are comfortable with.
This is such a tough road to be on...I can feel the emotions of this post all too well, as my DH and I have had similar conversations. Its so scary to have to think about all the realizations of infertility.
Thinking of both of you...
Doesn't it just suck to have to have those converstations? Good for you though for standing up for what you believe in
wow. what an amazing realization and conversation. like jj said, this is so damned difficult to navigate. i do hope this brings you some sort of peace. thinking of you, too...
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