From 0 to 6 and back to 0 in 48 hours

It seems I often run way ahead of myself. I have been worrying since our RE appt that we had very little chance of conceiving and then with the news of the Morrison sextuplets, I became worried I would have high-order multiples! Then, with the news of DH's sample sperm wash, I am back to thinking no baby again. What a rollercoaster this infertility journey is.

DH had his sample sperm wash yesterday. The results were not great. Only 2M motile sperm, the RE requires 1M for insemination. I talked with the nurse and she was really great and still positive, although I wasn't. Surprisingly, the RE actually called me this morning to go over the results, which impressed me that he was calling on a Saturday. DH will call his urologist on Monday to discuss the Clomid (it won't hurt but we aren't expecting much b/c he is not in the class of men for whom it is usually beneficial). We will do the six cycles of IUI although the RE thinks there is less than 10% chance over the six cycles that we would be successful. We are in agreement that we are not going to do IVF. We are going to start exploring adoption since the process does take so long. At this point, our preference is for domestic infant adoption.

It seems to stange to me that this time last year I was taking my last birth control pill and dreaming of the day (in the near future or so I thought at the time) of being pregnant. In fact, I was worried that I would become pregnant too early and my due date would cause a work conflict if it was before May. What little I knew.